Rambling Vol.1...

So during prayer time last night at Bible Study, i was thinking through the way i normally pray (We've been discussing this of late). My conclusions is that i'm a prayer-spastic.

I address the "Lord" first of all, thank Him for my day, chance to gather blah blah. Often times i move on to whatever we discussed in church and so on.

What peeved me off was this - I'm actually stupid enough to ask God for more Grace! (like what He's given me is not enough or something) When Paul asked God to remove his thorn in the flesh God answered that His grace was sufficient (2 cor 12:9)

Although the intention of asking God for more grace is pure, the demonstration of the understanding of His grace readily available, is tainted!

God gives us all different situations that we must face. Some are really crappy and some are disguised as 'mountain top experiences'. Good times or bad - we need grace.

So i was thinking 'more grace' or 'more realization of the grace already available'?

Oswald Chambers wrote - "I feel sorry for the believer who has not something in his life that he wishes were not there."

I've had stuff in my life lately that i wish wasn't there, situations that often times left me feeling like my head was being held underwater and in desperate need of fresh air. God didn't pull my head out of that water so i wouldn't drown, He let me swing my arms like crazy and fight it until i finally realized the water was going nowhere - and He shoved a bloody oxygen pipe in my gob.

Living an easy christian life where all is roses, we're friends with everybody blah blah is easy - but not true christianity. We ARE going to find ourselves in tough situations, fighting for a breath of fresh air, asking God for 'more grace' - the sooner we realize that God's grace is enough, and start asking Him for the opportunity to experience that Grace wholly, the better off we will be.

"God i don't need more grace, i just need You to continue to provide opportunities both Rosey and Thorny, that help me to experience wholley that grace you've already given to me'